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Nova999
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How do you say goodbye when you imagine what could have been. How can we take the step to shut someone out of our lives or dump them. I can pick up individuals but the idea of dumping is foreign to me. So tell me how do you say goodbye forever.
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nova
So yeah. That's it. Felt like writing a blog but the description is all I have. That, and imagining seeing someone years later who we dumped. I don't dump. I act like a huge burden so I get dumped. That way I never have to deal with it.
I can only imagine the hurt it must cause people to see someone they dumped years later. To imagine that they made that choice. To know they could have fixed them, and they could also have been fixed. Just knowing this would be painful enough. Whether the person was successful or a failure. Either way they could have been the difference. Our modern culture tells us no one can change another. Well I tell you that's bullshit. Call me dependant, naive, and stupid. I don't care. As the butterfly effect tells us a slight breeze can change history. Imagine what a person can do. I call all those who say someone can't fix us the stupid ones.
That is aside my point though. I was trying to examine the pain of knowing you made the choice. You played god with life rather than try to just do your best you threw someone away. There is no good outcome to this. Or at least no painless one. You see that person years later. They are rich successful, and eloquent. You feel pain for misjudging them. Or you see them broken and battered and feel responsible for what they are. Dumping is not an easy thing. No wonder I try to make others do my dirty work.
On the flip side being the dumped person hurts also. Knowing you cared, and that if you become better you may cause the person pain and guilt. At least by failing you would know they would have comfort in being right. Unless you are vengeful the idea of succeeding can only cause confusion. If you did get dumped it's almost easier just to give up and fail. Then the person was right, and will not feel guilt if you do become successful.
Anyway that's it. I'm on a partial strike right now so if you want more. Too fucking bad. If you don't like it dump me. Then I'll have an excuse to fail.
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i've given a couple of properly poor women the boot, and for reasons i knew i wouldn't regret. the worst part about seeing them again in the street on a casual day doesn't bother me much aside from the occasional build-up of "why do you cross my path?"-type of feelings, annoyance, irritation, reminder of poor times. i don't give a fuck if they're astronauts or homeless tho, cos i don't compare myself with other people at all. it never was a motivator for me to see the success of other people to make me perform equally as good or better, it was more self destructive. so now i forge my own path independently of what the fuck other people wants to do or already does.
i'll also shoot in, before everyone else rags on it, the part about acting like a burden to be dumped that i get it. i wouldn't do it myself, but the mechanics behind it i suppose is that you're making it somehow easier for them to dump you and live with that decision afterwards. i personally prefer the mutual agreement - "this doesn't work too well, don't you think?"
a small few ladies have too thrown me out, but it never came as a surprise tho. as you say, it hurts, but it shouldn't be a surprise in many cases. it will play with your thoughts of how you're not a good person and/or break that success-seeking nose you have - unsuccessful in love, perhaps unsuccessful elsewhere. do your best to get over it the healthiest way you know, and all of a sudden you're back on your feet without a bent back and a snotty nose.
that said, i'm going downtown to get me some nice casual clothes for this woman i'm meeting tomorrow, yeeeah! i think she even might be sane too !~
i can't promise i'll refrain from trolling on your future posts, but there you go :>
i've given a couple of properly poor women the boot, and for reasons i knew i wouldn't regret. the worst part about seeing them again in the street on a casual day doesn't bother me much aside from the occasional build-up of "why do you cross my path?"-type of feelings, annoyance, irritation, reminder of poor times. i don't give a fuck if they're astronauts or homeless tho, cos i don't compare myself with other people at all. it never was a motivator for me to see the success of other people to make me perform equally as good or better, it was more self destructive. so now i forge my own path independently of what the fuck other people wants to do or already does.
i'll also shoot in, before everyone else rags on it, the part about acting like a burden to be dumped that i get it. i wouldn't do it myself, but the mechanics behind it i suppose is that you're making it somehow easier for them to dump you and live with that decision afterwards. i personally prefer the mutual agreement - "this doesn't work too well, don't you think?"
a small few ladies have too thrown me out, but it never came as a surprise tho. as you say, it hurts, but it shouldn't be a surprise in many cases. it will play with your thoughts of how you're not a good person and/or break that success-seeking nose you have - unsuccessful in love, perhaps unsuccessful elsewhere. do your best to get over it the healthiest way you know, and all of a sudden you're back on your feet without a bent back and a snotty nose.
that said, i'm going downtown to get me some nice casual clothes for this woman i'm meeting tomorrow, yeeeah! i think she even might be sane too !~
i can't promise i'll refrain from trolling on your future posts, but there you go :>
Being caught rubbing fruit curd all over yourself whilst auto-asphyxiating might do the trick.
Being caught rubbing fruit curd all over yourself whilst auto-asphyxiating might do the trick.
my
god...
where the hell has all this estrogen come from? why are you sounding like a whiney tartlet?
seriously dude, man the fuck up.
for starters; people dump other people because they're not compatable, in your case it's because you've become a little bitch and you have a tiny pecker. love in a relationship is about finding someone that you want to spend your life with, you can't 'fix' someone to stay with you if they don't want to... this is called stalking and can lead to adbuction and in your case most likely murder via anal rape.
so man up and move on already. i was hoping for the eventual almighty return of 'the nova' and instead we get this. wtf dude, seriously?
my
god...
where the hell has all this estrogen come from? why are you sounding like a whiney tartlet?
seriously dude, man the fuck up.
for starters; people dump other people because they're not compatable, in your case it's because you've become a little bitch and you have a tiny pecker. love in a relationship is about finding someone that you want to spend your life with, you can't 'fix' someone to stay with you if they don't want to... this is called stalking and can lead to adbuction and in your case most likely murder via anal rape.
so man up and move on already. i was hoping for the eventual almighty return of 'the nova' and instead we get this. wtf dude, seriously?
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Also, you forgot the tits....Down Triangled....
Also, you forgot the tits....Down Triangled....
@Rokkus Weren't you the one who came in the female dorm mates shampoo. Don't talk aboot stalking when you are a sex offender you bitch.
P.S. I expect a 90% yes rate or I may not come back. So vote better.
@Rokkus Weren't you the one who came in the female dorm mates shampoo. Don't talk aboot stalking when you are a sex offender you bitch.
P.S. I expect a 90% yes rate or I may not come back. So vote better.
@Rokkus Weren't you the one who came in the female dorm mates shampoo. Don't talk aboot stalking when you are a sex offender you bitch.
P.S. I expect a 90% yes rate or I may not come back. So vote better.
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you dirty attention whore. the fact that ur here says enough
@Rokkus Weren't you the one who came in the female dorm mates shampoo. Don't talk aboot stalking when you are a sex offender you bitch.
P.S. I expect a 90% yes rate or I may not come back. So vote better.
you dirty attention whore. the fact that ur here says enough
you dirty attention whore. the fact that ur here says enough
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you dirty attention whore. the fact that ur here says enough
damn you're thick ^
"if we should meet again and introduced as friends, please don't say, you knew me when, I was hungry and it was your world."
damn you're thick ^
"if we should meet again and introduced as friends, please don't say, you knew me when, I was hungry and it was your world."
damn you're thick ^
"if we should meet again and introduced as friends, please don't say, you knew me when, I was hungry and it was your world."
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You realize whom your talking to right?
damn you're thick ^
"if we should meet again and introduced as friends, please don't say, you knew me when, I was hungry and it was your world."
You realize whom your talking to right?
@Rokkus Weren't you the one who came in the female dorm mates shampoo. Don't talk aboot stalking when you are a sex offender you bitch.
P.S. I expect a 90% yes rate or I may not come back. So vote better.
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i pissed in the shampoo, slight difference and besides they had it comming!
it was your mum who i came in.
@Rokkus Weren't you the one who came in the female dorm mates shampoo. Don't talk aboot stalking when you are a sex offender you bitch.
P.S. I expect a 90% yes rate or I may not come back. So vote better.
i pissed in the shampoo, slight difference and besides they had it comming!
it was your mum who i came in.
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the salmon smell combined with the sound of bendy conspiracy-nuts was unresistable
the salmon smell combined with the sound of bendy conspiracy-nuts was unresistable