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Just another blog from me
Human life is a very short action during the course of the workings of a regular universe. We are born, experience life, learn everything we know, have kids, grandkids, and die all before a comet takes even one lap around the cosmic nieghborhood. Insignificant does not even begin to describe what we, as individuals, are in the grand scheme of things.
Yet our everyday problems seem so much bigger to us, even to the point where we think they encompass all existance. Some pray to their idea of a 'god'... as if, even if he or she did exist they would give two shits about what one person out of 5 billion plus on this planet alone was going through.
Others just live, or try to, without bothering anyone or anything and just want to get home from work to get stoned and look at funny pictures on the internet. Maybe get hammered for the weekend. We understand, or begin to, just how little we matter... and are cool with it.
People like that understand that our happiness means little if not nothing to everyone else. We don't care, we just want to be left alone. We do good for a while. Then we mix with the others, or somehow get involved with one of them, and it ruins everything.
Take me for instance. 15 months ago I was just another nameless faceless bastard going to work everyday, then getting stoned, then going to work again. Then I met someone, one of the others, and got myself intangled in all kinds of other shit. Drama. Something I wasn't used to. And it ruined my life.
Now, in order to even get back to where I was before, I owe the state some jail time. That's ok, because like I said before my life is insignificant and the time I will waste ultimately means nothing compared to the 80-100 years I will live on this Earth. Still, it sucks to be me.
I used to want to be someone important. Not anymore. That shit got old quick. All I want these days is just to go back to where I was before. Just another guy. I don't want to be special in anyone's life, or cared about, or even the boss of anything. I just want to be left alone to live my life. Hopefully, soon, that will be the case again.